So I dreamed about a scorpion last night, it was the last component to a very long sequence of odd events that I spent all morning processing. Not being familiar with what a scorpion represents; first, let me tell you what the scorpion was doing... I was sleeping in a house that was owned by I think the first person that I truly loved was or who represented my ideal love. The scorpion came down from the wall and as I spied it coming my way. I picked up a pair of shears and a pillow with which to battle it with. It came at me and stabbed the pillow but I noticed that it's claws were bound. Only the stinger could make contact. At the end of the dream, I had the scorpion by the tail with the scissors. I could snip off the stinger at any second. I remember just sitting there with the power of that and smiling. So I looked up scorpion in the dream dictionary. It said that the appearance of a scorpion is thus: To see a scorpion in your dream represents a situation in your waking life which may be painful or hurtful. It is also indicative of destructive feelings, "stinging" remarks, bitter words and/or negative thoughts being expressed by or aimed against you. You may be on a self-destructive and self-defeating path. The scorpion is also a symbol of death and rebirth. You need to get rid of the old and make room for something new.(http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/s.htm) Well this makes perfect sense as I am wrapping up a negative situation in my life as of today officially and have been feeling a sense of rebirth again. So this was a welcome moment of appreciation at the start of my day.
Yet, there was one other component of the dream that was prominent also. I had a cellphone that was actually a fuzzy blue bird. My daughter was running to the street and almost into traffic and I pulled her back in time but the cellphone bird fell under a tire and got knocked around. I rushed it to the emergency room but they said that it was fine and it just was a bit banged up. I have no idea what the significance of this was so I looked it up. According to the website: To see a bluebird in your dream symbolizes both happiness and sadness. It is also an indication of purification and resolution to the opposing conflicts/paradoxes in your life. Well, that fits perfectly into my life which is usually in a state of cognitive dissonance. But why coupled with a cellphone? Here is what it says: To dream that you lost your cell phone represents a lack of communication. You have lost touch with some aspect of your feelings or your Self. This also makes great sense to me because I have an issue with myself about how I handled the situation with my now ex roommate. In fact, I think that many people who know me had a hard time believing that I would even put up with such behavior. I am a fighter, I don't back down, and I don't let people walk all over me especially people that I have little respect for. But I let her completely put me into a place of past trauma, her words and deeds were right out of every abusive relationship that I have been in all mashed into one. I have grown enough as a person that I took the high road, I didn't fight back, I let her rain her bullying and verbal attacks on me to the point where hearing her voice or seeing her call on my phone had my shoulders up to my ears and my stomach in knots. But I didn't want to cause more stress to my daughter so I played the high road card and tiptoed around her, avoided her, played civil with her all the while seething inside myself that I wasn't putting her in her obviously emotionally disturbed place. I felt that the part of me that I was proudest of, the part that didn't take any shit from people had turned into a victim, and I despise victim mentality. So this interpretation of my dream, protecting my daughter but abandoning myself then fighting the source of negativity and knowing I now have the power to cut it off and out of my life was a great dream to represent all that I have been going through and culminates today when I sign my new lease.
Now for some coffee!
